is it so hard to ask for one thing? okay, maybe it’s a few things. but still.. it all revolves around the same topic. i know i ask for too much, because i shouldn’t take the experiences i’ve been through for granted. and i don’t or at least try not to. it’s just that after something amazing happens, you expect more from that. like a greater expectation. i believe everything that happens is dealt with fate. if it’s meant to happen it will.
but the most human characteristic i hate about myself is wanting more. i always would want to change something.. not drastically, but in a different way. don’t get me wrong, i’m thankful for everything i have and been through. it’s one of my flaws. one of many i may add. those “what ifs” come into play. OVER-THINKING. that’s what it is. it’s something that’s inside our brains and kills us.. slowly.
why let one little letdown ruin your whole idea of hope? one minute you’re dying excited for something, and the next.. you barely want to go anymore. weird how life works. and it just makes everything that much more complicated.